Journals, blank books, are one of my favorite things to get as a gift, to buy at the store, and to give to a fellow journal writer.
They have so many different journals to choose from now. There are leather bound journals, silk bound journals, painted journals, journals with flowers, dragons, landscapes, designs, and just about anything you can think of.
There are big journals, small journals. pocket sized journals, journals with lines and without. There are journals with questions to help you think of what to write, to write down your memories, or dreams. I love journals.
This year has been really hard. I have felt quiet lost at times, missing my parents so much it hurt. I fell into a deep depression for a time. It took awhile and a lot of effort to get back up out of the darkness that was threatening to swallow me up. My journals helped to save me. I could write whatever I wanted and not worry I would offend or upset anyone.
For the first year after my parents died I kept a journal where I wrote letters to my mom everyday, sometimes several times a day. I had been so close to her, I was used to talking to her everyday, and it was a way for me to keep talking to her, to gradually accept that she was gone, but would never be forgotten.
I shared many things in my journal written to her. I told her a lot of the things I wish I had had the time to tell her when she was here. I apologized for some stupid mistakes. I shared some new experiences with her. Then as the year drew to a close and my journal was almost full, I realized it was time to let go. I was okay with that. My journal had allowed me to hold her close for awhile longer as I grieved.
There’s not a day when I don’t still miss my parents and wish I could talk to them, but I’m better prepared to face a future now, and I know that they are somehow watching over me.
If you’ve never tried writing in a journal then I encourage you to give it a try. Keep it safe, keep it private. Unless, you are journaling with a friend or spouse where you each take a turn writing a page. Free your mind – learn to journal, try it, you might like it.
Cherry Coley (c)
Side note* there is an App for smartphones called “Momento” it is a daily journal. You can even set a reminder and it will ask you – “how was your day?” It’s a great way to start keeping track of your memories and the moments in your life.