Grief, you think you have it down, you’ve worked through it, got control of things again and are making some progress and WHAP it throws you to the floor for another whole round of “what if’s” and “should have’s” and “you didn’t” that will take your breath away and leave you sitting in darkness. Demons whisper and taunt in the darkness they try to drown you in guilt, anger, self-pity and sadness.
My heart goes out to those who have lost, sometimes the pain is almost too much to handle. Yet even in the darkness there can be comfort, even in the depths there is hope. Darkness cannot hold on forever, the sun will rise and the dawn will break, then the darkness has no choice to flee, yes, that is what I know to be true and hold on too.
Right now it’s just a dark path in the woods and it’s just another part of this journey that continues to mold and make us who we are. Here too there are lessons to be learned. Here we are reminded of our humanity and that we have hearts that will break and bleed when wounded. Here we learn to seek solace, solitude, and most of all, God. For even in the darkest night, He is there.
It is in the deepest loss that we realize the value of what we had and what we still have. Not to say that we don’t appreciate the people in our lives already, but losing someone suddenly brings time into focus to clearly and you realize how valuable the moments we share are. Time is not an endless resource, don’t take it for granted or waste it.
Tonight, the flame of my candle barely burns, yet I am still here, and still have a purpose so I know that deep down the fire will continue and tomorrow the flame will be a little brighter, a little warmer.
Cherry Coley (c)